13.1.2011

Received last call from husband from Turkmenistan last night. 7 minutes! that's long,okay. usually tak sampai 5 minit die dah kene hang up. Supposedly, by now he has left his camp in Kiyanly (betulkah ejaan???) to the main city of Ashgabat(again, spelling check might be needed. Then off to Bangkok, from where he'll take a connecting flight to KL. Yayyyyy!!! Rindu okay. 3 months is a long time.


Unfortunately, company kedelut, suruh naik Air Asia. Which means he'll mendarat at LCCT. Sungguh tak romantic/dramatic/memeorable to have our reunion in LCCT. Therefore, am reconsidering whether or not to come pick him up. Better meet up at home je kan. Cant lie, am so excited that he is finally coming home , and just in time for our first wedding anniversary. Jimat duit husband, in spirit of berjimat-cermat, have decided to not mintak anniversary present this year...

Checklist of things prepared for husband's return:
1- kemas/rearrange/mop bilik - done (with help from mak and bibik. - barang berat ok, and im tired constantly, and i am by nature, memang malas)
2- basuh bilik air - done (by bibik, not to my satisfaction tho, cermin pun tak lap....urfjskffkls)
3- pakai nightie pink - errr probably not. firstly, die balik siang and secondly, no nightie can fit my ultra huge comel tummy. but if nak kaftan pink, tu no problem...coming from me yang sangat la anti kaftan-wearing for any occasion)
4 - Food - tomyam for lunch. then we'll go out for dinner. hopefully yuen's steamboat or tony roma ribs. I need protein!!!

Pic taken when sending him off at KLIA. (I miss my pre-sembabness days)

oh, baby is also doing fine, Alhamdulillah. Lately noticed that pattern movement baby dah berubah. Now, she's very quiet in the morning but gets a bit active later at night. Oh, I miss those super huge ombak movements. Tak cukup space kot...poor baby love, stuck in cramped tummy. Takpe, once you're born, can golek2 on mommy's bed k...i love you baby yayang...

14.01.2011

This is husband's estimated date of arrival. After more than 3 months of being away, husband is coming home. Baby, baby tunggu ayah balik dulu k...

back to packing hospital bag....

37 weeks

its 2a.m in the morning and i cant sleep. not beecause im not sleepy, which I am.  (mulut menguap continuosly, mata pun dah berair) but literally cannot sleep. mengah nafas, back aches, tummy pun pedih skit lower part, bladder playing games of kejap rase nak kencing, once pegi toilet, feeling tu hilang...

i know i shouldnt complain. this is minor compared to the early months of morning sickness ( ooh, sgt miserable time itu okay!) but this aches and discomfort will not be missed once baby arrives. on that note, in all honesty, the only part of pregnancy that I enjoy is feeling baby move/kick/golek in the tummy and the bond i feel with baby. Parts lain, i can do without. Nak kata its been a learning experience, obviously, but its a lesson yang I'd rather learn thru experience orang lain. Merapatkan hubungan dengan the hubster, to a certain degree,...yes tapi it also made me realise a few things that I dont like about him (he WASNT as helpful as I expected him to be and being absent during the last 3 months ni lagi la tidak mengendear him in my eyes la kan). Oh, but it did make me realise how precious a mother's love is. Seriously, Mak has been my biggest supporter, caregiver, nurturer, tak cukup words lah to describe what she's done for me during husband's absence. So dear husband, once you balik, tak payah la nak bagi alasan nak cover tido or nak rest extra, what you should and shall be doing is making it up to me and proving to my family that you are worthy of being my husband. that would mean, shopping trips, makan sessions and loads of foot rubs. and no skipping out of my check ups at KK.

oh, back to main reason for this blog. At 37 weeks, baby seems to be doing fine. still moving and squirming. Got occasional super active movements, not as often these days. Poor baby, running out of space kot. Takpe sayang, once you come out, golek la puas-puas atas katil mommy k. Love you so much. I do hope husband comes home soon. Selfish reason is so he can take care of me selepas mengelat for past three months. But selain tu, I really hope he sempat tengok and feel baby's movement. Its such an amazing, life changing, calming experience that I do not want him to miss. Oh, and he better be around for the birth. Im starting to feel the fear. Words like CONTRACTIONS, PAIN, EPIDURAL, KOYAK, JAHIT seems permanently etched on my mind....

Perlukan distraction...maybe I should sneak down to the kitchen for a few bites of Baskins...

Check up Week 35

I think I missed a few posts concerning baby's progress. Sorry lah, but a few recent events totally spoiled my mood to jot down anything. Alhamdullillah, all the news from the doctor have been good. My weight, blood sugar levels, health conditions overall is still normal. Complaints of backpain, achy fingers and joints, trouble sleeping, stress incontinence all those are normal symptoms faced by pregnant moms. At this stage, while its inconvenient and exhausting, all is still tolerable. Its all worth it knowing that baby is growing and developing well.

During last check-up with Dr. Hamidah at Putrajaya Hospital, doc said baby is approximately 2.4kg, heartbeat normal, moving very actively. Baby is in the right head down position. Air ketuban is at normal levels and baby hasnt moved down yet. Up til now, no signs of an early labour yet. Good lah, i really want husband to be part of baby's birth. Sayang, you wait for ayah to return k before coming out. I m sure ayah pun tak nak miss your grand entrance...

Doctor even gave me a keepsake this time...a nice 3D pic of baby sucking on her fingers. Aaaah...so adorable. I love you sayang....(pic not so clear, snapped by dayah from the original printout)

01.01.2011

hmmm....the first day of the new year. overall, 2010 was a good year. I got married, gained a husband, gained a new family, gained some weight jugak(haishhh). travelled to krabi(first honeymoon), tioman (second honeymoon), and bali third honeymoon). bought our first home, bought a new car. I feel more comfortable and enjoy myself more at work. Throughout the year, I discovered so much about myself and also about others in my life. I've learnt to be more accepting of my faults and weaknesses, as well as others. I've reevaluated the relationships i have with family, relatives, friends and co-workers and have come to realise and accept that while you can change or control people, you can choose who you wish to have in your life. This realisation has made me a much happier person. Most importantly, 2010 brought me the most wonderful news, I'm pregnant!

Not that 2010 was perfect, loads of arguments, stressful decisions, health issues. But overall, I feel very grateful for a good year. Thank you God for the blessings you've bestowed in the form of wonderful, loving people in my life, rezeki in many forms, the great experiences and most importantly, this great gift due in 2011. Dear baby, mommy loves you so much and cant wait for your arrival...

so 2011, i welcome you with open arms....hoping that you'll bring more and more blessings into my life.