Dear Diary Mode: We are a family of 3 again :)

The husband is home...yayyyy!!!

received a text from him at 6pm on Wednesday saying that he has landed in JB, back on home soil due to some emergency which he'll explain later and he'll be arriving in KL around midnight. ( Me: feeling happy but at the same time stressed because the house is in a mess and I dont want poor huaband coming back home to messy, cluttered home) So, I borrowed mom's maid Yati for a quick super fast spring cleaning session. (takde la cleaning sangat pun, just to vacuum and mop the lower floor).

After Maghrib, the three of us Yati, Hannah and I went back home. Hannah ate some biscuits before I dragged her to the TV/buai room. Watched some Timmy Time and played with her a bit before put her to sleep in the buai with Nyunyu. Yati started  with the express cleaning. I love the smell of freshly mopped floors. Am getting really tired of this living in 2 houses scenario. I miss my home.

Mom came to pick up Yati around 9. Hannah recognised her voice and quickly demanded to be taken out of the buai. It was funny how when she said "Nenek nak balik dah" lil Hannah actually walked towards her and took her hand and started leading her down the stairs towards the door. When she realised that nenek wasnt planning on taking her along, she bawled and threw a tantrum. So nenek had no choice but to delay going home . I asked Yati if she wouldn't mind having Maggi for dinner while Mom put Hannah to sleep. She wasnt a willing participant but she was fast asleep by 30 Minit with Ustaz Don. I got to enjoy some TV time after Mom left with Yati.

Went to bed around 11ish, plan to wait for the husband cancelled due to fatigue. Bila dah masuk tidur, barulah teringat yang I didnt lock the grill. Since dah lewat, macam malas la pulak nak turun balik. So, I went to sleep dengan perasaan yang tak best where each and every sound scared me. The husband arrived safe around 1.30. Hannah was asleep but I think the noise woke her up a bit. She played with him for awhile before falling back to sleep. Its amazing how even after 2 weeks of absence,  child can immediately recognize her father. awwww :)

The one on Hannah B being mischievious, cheeky and challenging!!!

Grrrrr.... I love my daughter to bits but she has not been easy to handle lately. Maybe its bacause she's just learnt to walk and the joys of unaided freedom of movement is causing her to do things she never did before, or maybe its because she is a baby genius who likes doing things out of curiosity without understanding the consequences of her actions on others.

For instance, I am a curious baby, and I love playing with water bottles. I especially love turning the bottle upside down and watch as the bottle empties itself. Wow, amazingly the bottle feels much lighter now and the cool rush of water dripping down my arm feels so comforting. Who cares if by doing so I've become wet and mommy will now have to change my clothing again! or that I've also ruined mommy's outfit and now she needs to change as well. and she's rushing off to work. This is fun and I should do this again!

mommy needs to rant on a bit more. later. bye.

unproductive me

Third day of the week and I'm still suffering from Monday Blues... well, since its Wednesday already, should it be called Wednesday Blues??? Am hoping to jump out of the slump fast because I cannot afford to keep this bad bahaviour going on any longer. Next week is gonna be super hectic with classes starting for the new semester ans I  am so behind on preparation. If things dont start picking up, I foresee going to class with a smile on my face and absolutelt nothing going on in my brain. Gaaaaaah.... need a pick me up, fast!

So what is it that's causing this lack of productivity? I dont even know where to start. Im uninspired and unmotivated at work, I'm exhausted and unorganised at home. Workwise, I feel unappreciated and insecure, undriven (is there such a word at all???) and I just feel bored and useless. On the home front, the husband has been away for 2 weeks, Hannah B is acting up, terrible 2's starting a bit early I guess, the house is a mess and I feel like a zombie shifting from home to work to mom's place back to home for a night's sleep. And repeat for the next day. I miss talking to the husband, I miss cooking in my kitchen, I miss family time at the park during weekends, I miss looking forward to go back home after a long day's work at the office.


Blaaaaaarrrrggghhh..........

I feel so ungrateful for complaining and acting this way but I cant help it I guess. Well this better stop soon. I need a burst of positivity, ASAP!